Rowan's Milk

When you lose a baby you suddenly discover you are a part of a secret club. Most people do not talk about their experiences until another mother has lost her baby. However, the fact that most women will lactate after losing a baby, even in the early second trimester, is the even bigger secret. With your help, we can get it out in the open. Share your story to help other grieving mothers and let them know they are not alone. Thanks to all those willing to share their stories.

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Thursday, October 21, 2010

Alone and 17

I was 17 (and single) when I became pregnant and lost the baby at 12 weeks. Even though the miscarriage was "for the best," this was 20 years ago and I still think of that baby almost every day - and almost no one knows about him/her. I held his (I think of the baby as a boy) body and because I was too young to be pregnant, and not many people knew, I had to just flush his body away. I think of this and feel such regret and loss - I wish I had known more at the time, and had some sort of burial for him.

I now am married and a mother of three. But the baby I lost is always added to my number of children only in my mind and heart.

Thank you for this opportunity to tell my story.